Just had the chat about the house. She agreed to the terms but said she needs to stay until she finds a place. She said maybe 4 months and I told her that 4 months may be too long. She is still upset she didn't get the condo she put an offer on.
Funny thing happened, I was in my room folding clothes and she was in her room. She called out to me saying that this is hard. She was crying a bit. She didn't say alot but was upset so I let her alone.
I continued to fold laundry and she came into my room sat on my bed and began to talk. she said that I never made her cry and that I always included her in my plans. She also said that she was high maintainance and that I put up with that. She asked me if she was demanding and the centre of attention? I answered honeslty but kindly saying yes. She wanted examples I gave her some. She remain calm and quiet. I feel like she is examining her life or something. I remained confident and didn't get emotional. I kept reminding myself of the behaviour over the summer, realyzing that there has to be huge changes for us to work.
She ended up falling asleep in my bed for a bit while I cleaned up the house. She got up saying sorry for falling asleep, I said thats ok it's not the first time, (she feel asleep on me the first time we met, we both laughed and carried on with the night.
I think I am a not going to bring anything up and see what happens over the weekend. I want to see if she is still trying to figure it out. I did tell her though that I don't have the answer and that she has to find the answer herself.
And yes I realize that this could be a blip. I need to see consistant behaviour to even get a glimpse of hope. I feel weird because I have resign myself to the fact that we are splitting up and found myself wondering if I wanted her back? I still love the old her. She also said that I would be better off because I have dealt with it and she hasn't.
Anyway long post thats all for now.
Jeff
ME 44 W 32 M 5 T 6
no kids
June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
