Sometimes under severe stress we can "dissociate" from situations and our very selves, in order to keep afloat. Is that what your sense of "disengagement" is like?
Yes...
And it appears to be in "spells".
H and I had what I consider a pretty good weekend together. So I'm presently holding onto one of my better states-of-mind. However, that now appears to be accompanied by a feeling of "fast-forwarding". Lot's of jaw clenching, light-headedness, and jumpiness.
Gads, I'm a walking textbook of stress symptoms.
I've been reading your thread in small chunks lately. Your latest posts have been deeply moving.
As a matter-of-fact, (hope you don't mind Shiney) for anyone who is reading this post, if you haven't already, I would highly recommend reading Shiney's journal entry from a year ago. It starts about midway down the page and the subsequent posts that follow through page 7 are a must read. Not to suggest that the rest isn't wonderful, just that the highest concentration of gems are there.
And of course I don't mind you sending folks to my thread!
Hair loss too, huh? Any questions about that...I'm your girl! Lost about 1/3 of mine due to illness in 1985, then about half of it in 1989 (illness and surgery), then again in 1996 (more surgery) and again last fall (less major surgery, but the stress of my M sitch did NOT help at ALL).
Good news is....it's grown back every single time! It tends to grow back thicker, darker and curlier .
For a time there I was losing over 1000 hairs A DAY! (yes it is a tad compulsive, but I counted a couple of times...actually saved a 2-foot braid from fall-out #2).
My "fallouts" tend to last for several months, starting slowly, picking up speed, and then slowing down. I was scared as HELL the first time...but since I now KNOW it will come back, it's not so horrible.
Alas, now I have a corona of 3 inch long fuzzies that stick out all over if I don't slick it down!
Yes, comparatively speaking, last weekend was "good".
I'm going to add some meditation to my schedule in an effort to reverse the trauma induced stress responses in my body. Got to get my chemistry balanced somehow.
I see by your thread that you are making progress. Talking about financial vows...hmmm...good stuff!
Quoting Jeannine: I'm going to add some meditation to my schedule in an effort to reverse the trauma induced stress responses in my body. Got to get my chemistry balanced somehow.
Hooray!
I've been doing the Jack Kornfield Vipassana one from here for the last few days:
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Hooray!