My crazy mess....what version is this now???!!!

[christarn]

VS~

Talked to my atty. today, she said we are waiting on H's atty to get back to her to make sure they are agreeable to the details of the paperwork. I hope that is true. I'm so flustered with atty's in general right now i could scream!!!!!!!!! I'm upset with mine because she has this document supposedly prepared and didn't even ask me to come review it or even call me to let me know it was done...kind of crappy if you ask me. And i'm paying her how much an hour??? <------sorry venting here!!!!

So I text msgd. H to let him know the document was prepared and we were waiting on his side; he hasn't gotten back to me. I'm a little disgruntled with that as well. On top of all of this finals are Friday, I am sick and feel rather poopy!!! LOL!!!

I agree last night was a crack in the dam. I saw him and felt him opening up. When things settle down here, I want to call and ask him if I can bring dinner out and cook for him one night next week. The C recommended spending a few hours a week together and see how things go. I am really hoping he is agreeable to this, especially before our next session. He said in this session he had not really had a chance to get "to know me again." The C said we should work on this, so he can see for himself that the changes i have made are legit and not just something i talk about. I agree...it's time he gets to see who i have become, so we can start to make some new memories....and he can begin to forget about the "mean angry monster" I once was!

I know exactly how your W feels. Part of me is so ready for m M to get back on track, and to be with the H all the time. But part of me is so scared, scared of being hurt, scared of losing all the independence I have now. It's such a scary thought. Thinking about going back and H having an anger melt down like he used to have, it's a lot to think about and consider!!

well i have company...gotta go!

((((VS))))

Christa