6 months...seems like forever. Bomb day....I still see myself sitting on the front porch of my house...talking to W on the phone...she didn't know I was there. I calmly tried to get her to "come clean". She was blathering on about how I was "accusing" her and didn't know what I was talking about...while in mid conversation...I picked up my other phone...and called OM to ask him how his night at the driving range was. Earlier in the morning I found a video on Ws phone of him at the driving range. I got W in 1 ear and OM in the other....W was floored!! She had no clue I was on the front porch....we were talking still....she was upset...as was I. We hang up for a bit...I can hear her walking around in the house...I call her back...can't remember why. While we are talking I cough into the phone....silence...she asks my how long have I been on the porch...bout 45mins I tell her. Suprisingly we remain quite calm while talking in person. She tells me about how much they "love" each other....this part actually hurts the most...I have gotten over all the other aspects of the A... She takes off her ring and I do the same. She calls off work. She leaves for awhile...I sit on my porch and start to cry...I call almost every member of my family...and most of hers. We meet for lunch at a local Mexican place and talk a bit...the kids have no clue as they were sleeping over at friends the night before and not home. I really don't remember lunch conv...very fuzzy still...we both had some drinks and then went home to nap. The night before I was doing my weekly motorcycle meet up...kids were out...W was out with OM. When I got home I was locked out of house and I called W to see when she would be home...no answer a couple times...at the time I thought nothing of it. I broke in a open window so I called W back to let her know. She said she was out shopping or at starbucks or something and didn't hear the phone. Earlier in the evening she was showering and I was gearing up to go out. I saw her phone out and picked it up...W had been doing alot of texting lately so I was curious. Her and a person named "Sheri" were exchanging alot of personal texts...I honestly didn't give it much thought at the time.
I am not gonna recap everyday in the last 6 months....but this was day 1 and day .5. Gonna try to do some work...will put up some more feelings/thoughts later
H 34 W 31 M 11yrs D 11 D 9
6-1-08 I wanted to fix marriage 6-11-08 I found out about OM
