...I hate when the other girls have secrets and won't share them...make them tell, Mommy!
No secrets here, Shiney, just a couple of stressed out ladies getting goofy. You can follow our goofiness by reading back a little ways on Pam's thread.
Last night while I was lying in bed waiting to go to sleep, I began to wonder if some part of my mind had finally snapped. I felt like I wasn't detached as much as I was disengaged.
Lately, I feel like that thread that I've been hanging by, has finally broken and I'm now in some sort of "free fall". It's probably temporary, but my concern is that I will not be DBing as effectively as I should.
I felt very stressed and angry when he was pursuing me sexually. (This is new for me). I felt short-changed by his advances this time. I think you are right in your assessment, that my laughing fit might have been stress related.
I know that my H cannot help himself right now, and I do want to meet his needs, however, I've been running on empty for a long time and I'm losing a sense of "me".
I'm not blaming my H for that though. It's something that I must come to terms with and correct.
When I spoke to my H on the phone yesterday, before he came home, he spoke of how difficult it is for him to be "positive" in light of our financial woes, vehicle trouble and the unpleasant circumstances he is dealing with at work. (The job thing seems to be the most overwhelming of situations for him). He did not mention anything that had to do with me or our M. That's good I suppose, unless of course, he was simply leaving it off the list for my benefit. I'm not going to venture a guess with that possibility right now.
It's going on 6pm and I have not heard from him yet. This is unusaul so I'm not sure what the problem is. Just going to try to distract myself for the time being.
