I was just sitting here becoming uncomfortable about "not doing something to work on my M". Almost like I'm sitting her waiting time doing other things. It was at the top of my priority list. Then, I caught myself. I have all this time to do something else. Stuff that will benefit ME. I finished my budget (finally back to break even) and created my Christmas list.
I'm feeling the weight being lifted off my shoulders by not concerning myself with W or M or OM. I'm one of those types that get obsessive about fixing issues and can't rest until it's resolved or fixed (part of our M problems). I realized I FIXED MY PART. I can't show her that I will non-controlling and emotionally involved until she lets go of OM. I can't do a damn thing until she takes a step.
It's the classic two front battle. You can win on one front but still lose the battle. There is nothing I can do about the other front (OM) than disappear and make myself appealing. I can do that!!!!! Just go out and do what I want to do.
