The results are in...Dust myself off & start again

[Silent Chrleader]

I'm sure you know that "numbness" you feel is your minds way of shutting down and saying "Enough already!!" From my perspective as a total emotional wimp, I think the fact that you are still functional at all is something you need to remind yourself to be proud of!! If I had to go through what you are dealing with, I would likely be downright suicidal.......or homicidal....or both.....

Hang in there, ((((((((((Treese))))))))))