If my words helped in any way, then I am very glad! I am normally a very intuitive and emotional person, and have always been very open, especially with my H. Sitting on my tonge and "letting go" and choosing to be happy in myself is a constant struggle! If you check out my thread, you will see that I am by no stretch of the imagination an example of good DB'ing.

I really try to just keep telling myself that I don't need to live my whole life today. Only this moment. I tell myself this because I am the world's worst for "future f**king" myself! (I'm sorry if I offend by that phrase). ;\)

But, I still think of the OW all the time and sometimes wish I could just face her and tell her what I think of her.....or scratch her eyes out! ........or pull all her hair out .........or run over her with my car....no, not the car, the big monster truck (we have a Ford F350 Crew Cab)........

Lucky for her, I'm a pacifist! \:D ;\)

Take care, [[[[[[Hope]]]]]]!!

TJ

Me45,H49
D24,S18
M26,T28
Bomb 3/19/08
Sep 6/23/08
EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8
3/2009 H moved in w/OW2
7/2009 Let him go w/Love.
8/2009 Legally Sep'd