H did not send them....I did find who did though....he is a friend from way back....his wife passed away 3 years ago and she was also a friend of mine...he knew what I was going through and wanted to brighten my day.... He is also the one who told me not too long ago that he has always been a fan of mine....wants to date me but I told him we are only friends, that I treasure that but I can't be romantically involved with him....
The flowers were beautiful....and it really did brighten my day..
H was at my house last night...don't know if he saw the flowers or not but I hope he did....
And you all are going to be so mad at me....
H texted me to see if he could pay his ticket out of our account...I told him yes...if he didn't then they could pick him up...I can't have him in jail not making any money....
I'm not liking him much lately for taking advantage of my feelings....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
wow sweetie alot on your plate! no wonder i havent been able to reach you by phone!!
I feel so bad for you, and you know I understand the fear you have right now, that is a fear I have too, I just dont know if i can deal with the ow for the next 18 years. the son, yes he is adorable, but not her.
hang in there sweetie!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
BG.....sorry we haven't been able to connect...I will call I promise....it's so crazy....I'm falling apart little by little...trying to hold it together.....
I saw my H's son when he was 1....didn't know it was his then...at that time he didn't look anything like my H but i've been told he looks exactly like him now....I'm afraid to see him...
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
I saw H's son last week, it was weird, but glad i did, it was a very hard nite. but I made it thru it like a champ, BECAUSE the child is innocent. its not thier fault, keep telling yourself that!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I've always said it wasnt the childs fault...but it's just so weird because he is a 9 yr old boy...he's not a baby....that's what we're having issues with...it's hard to get past that....
one day I will....but right now I'm numb from it all.....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
i totally feel the numb! did he just find out about his son? or has he known this whole time? i am struggling with that myself. our whole last year of hell, that he fought with me on purpose, to protect the 3 of them makes me so mad!!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I'm sure you know that "numbness" you feel is your minds way of shutting down and saying "Enough already!!" From my perspective as a total emotional wimp, I think the fact that you are still functional at all is something you need to remind yourself to be proud of!! If I had to go through what you are dealing with, I would likely be downright suicidal.......or homicidal....or both.....
Hang in there, ((((((((((Treese))))))))))
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
BG....my H has know about his son for the whole 9 years....from the time she was pregnant...he chose to keep it a secret from us and supress it for 10 years....
It's not just me, it's my children...they are crushed as am I...
I keep telling my mom that NO ONE can truly know what I'm feeling..it's a different feeling all together....how did he keep that the one person who loved him most in this world..that is what I am having trouble with....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
Silent.... Believe me....I have wanted to run them both over with my car...but I'm better than that....I'm only surviving because of my children, family, and friends...who wont let me fall.....suicidal...it's crossed my mind...not lately cause that means my kids would be left with the not so sane H....
Barely functioning...as a matter of fact I texted my best friend and told her I was falling apart....I sobbed the whole way home from shopping...yelled at God...you name it...
This board has also been a lifesaver...just when you think you're the only one...I read about someone else just starting...I'm almost 2 years in to this and no relief in sight...who knows what Ill do...
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
