I was unfaithful #4

[mamanpc]

i can understand your feeling, M. When i see my H so happy and relaxed and relieved that he's told me all this and go live out his little love thing with OW - well that makes me so mad and miserable i can hardly see . But i'm working on NOT reacting that way because what use is that? and i have the POWER to NOT react that way - my reactions are my OWN DECISION and i don't have to react that way. And i'm beginning to understand that these 'knee-jerk' emotional reactions are directly related to my own 'stories' about being abandoned by the ones i love - those stories have nothing to do with H and EVERYTHING to do with ME. So it's ME that i need to work on - and that's fortunate because that happens to be the 1 person where i'm 100% responsible for getting the result. So i've started working...

I was also thinking how he must be getting wonderful, giddy, 'love-high' conversations with OW - so imagine the contrast if when he talks to me i'm down in the dumps. Even a neutral tone of conversation is probably a major contrast but at least it's neutral!
Hang in there...