Dear ones,

Last night I sent him an email that just said,

Dear B,

It was great to talk to you last night! Here is the list of schools I thought C might enjoy...I'd be happy to brainstorm a list of some summer programs or study abroad programs if you think that would be helpful. *alternatively*, I can grab my grappling hook and we can put Operation Rescue C into effect! (where did I park my helicopter...?)

TRANSFORMER


And then I put a list of schools with hyperlinks to each one's music department. The Operation Rescue C is a reference to a joke we made at the end of the conversation that we could just use a SWAT team to rescue his brother from his college and airlift him to the east coast by helicopter.

Essie, that makes a lot more sense now that you mention a specific location. I'm not sure how to pull it off either though, without it coming totally out of left field for him. I'm glad you liked my boston idea, I thought it might be just too crazy and it probably is a bit of a squeeze... I'll do some research though. I think I'll tell him when I call him on ... Monday (??) that I'll be in boston the next few days, even if I can't think of something irresistable to do. But that doesn't give him a lot of time to make plans...?? You are right, I am really hoping to see him, but even with my schedule it is unlikely... I get in tuesday afternoon, I have an appointment to get my cello worked on wednesday afternoon... so he'd either have to see me the day I got in, probably not that many hours before he'd have to get back on a bus to maine? Or meet me in the morning of the 17th before I leave for my cello appointment? It is starting to sound impossible!! \:\(

I can see what you mean about the best friends thing. I feel so much more comfortable being flirtatious in person. I feel comfortable being flirtatious over the phone when it's in the context of a committed relationship. But I feel totally clueless about radiating sex appeal from such a distance when I have NFC what he thinks about all this.

I also see what you mean about being halfway between stage 1 and stage 2. I think for so long I was really focused on changing myself and figuring out how I had contributed to the crisis. But more recently, part of me has been like, "Sh!t, girl! What he did to you was really, really terrible, immature, controlling, disrespectful. Why are you working so hard for someone who treated you like garbage?" So I have some of my own anger that I am still letting go of. I guess I'm just wondering... we've been in this "contact mode" for eight months. Is it like, another, four years before we get to friendsip? I guess there is no way to predict.

(((everyone)))
love,
T