Thanks for dropping by. I'm noticing a lot of positives on your thread.
I wish I felt as wonderful as I sound, however, I'm battling with anxiety over the impending departure of my H.
I don't like being in this "wait and see" mode. I've got to learn how to feel alright no matter what he does next. Tough going for a person with a fear of abandoment.
I'm packing a way the calories like a chipmonk right now and hoping that my body doesn't shut down to food intake, if and when he leaves.
Outside of that, I've had two occasions of late, when I actually felt fine. I was able to let go of fear and worry for about an hour each time.
I'm hoping to be able to duplicate that state of mind again and for longer periods of time.
My body shows gratitude by allowing me to enjoy food and ... no cramping.
Ok, I am here to check out your picture next! A few hours of non worry and peace with oneself is jsut great - with everything else you have going on, a victory. good to see you are doing better and packing in the food! Soemtimes being able to eat is a relief! Hope your H gets his space and sticks around- as I remember he did have some times of less anxiety and wanted to be with you. Think of how this came about and what you were doing. And I hope this keeps happening regardless of where he stays at night! Take care! Shay
Indeed it is. The weight loss has been a stressor for me.
Ok, I am here to check out your picture next!
I'm pretty much as discribed except for the freckles.
That picture was taken back in March of this year. My hair was quite long at the time, (I could sit on it) but I had it all cut off shortly afterward. For me, it was a symbolic gesture of cutting off the lies of the past.
I sure would like to see some pictures of the rest of our "bb gang".
And THANK YOU for ending my torment...Pam...you little wench you!!! I think you're just happy someone ELSE is having memory problems too!
J, those hours of "peace" will add up, my dear, they will last longer, come more frequently and the fact that you can eat better now...well it IS a relief, points to stress-related intestinal woes. No fun! But better than some of the alternative explanations!!!
those hours of "peace" will add up, my dear, they will last longer, come more frequently
I'm sure you're right, I just wonder if it can happen for someone as high-strung and fear-drenched as me. (myself?) I can't remember which is correct.
And speaking of memory, (we were weren't we?) mine seems to have sprung a leak!
I'm hoping that it's temporary and that the copious amounts of Cortisol flowing through my system over the past eight months hasn't left a hefty footprint in my brain!
Dang Blasted! I can't believe how loopy I've been lately ... why it's down right embarrassin'.
BUT it is better than definitely gone! Or definitely wanting out!!!
