Don't apologize, just work to get there for yourself. You may not be comfortable with it ever, or at least not until you take steps towards it but you really do need to take steps eventually.
Don't take what we said wrong. Just thougth it was time to be said.
We love you. Did you get tree done? Or at least started?
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
i agree with hope and kel. and dont apologize!!! this whole deal just sucks, and of course you are confused, i do see your point on your parents and the sd graduating. WHY are men so stupid to do this right now to us around the holidays??? THAT makes me angry at all 3 of our H's!! i love ya!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I know, I didn't take it wrong, just makes me mad that I can't myself there now. I know it is time, and I have to make myself do it.
The tree.....well, I almost didn't get the pies done! OOPS, Had 1/2 of H's beer and then had a beer when I ate some chips and dip, well that must have made me really tired. I laid down around 8:00 when the Mentalist had just came on, I was cold and I thought oh I will just lay down with some blankets and warm up for a bit, next thing I know H the phone is ringing, I it H calling. It was 9:30, I was like Sh*t, I hadn't done my crusts or anything, so I was glad he called. He said he almost hung up thinking I was sleeping. I said I was sleeping. OOPS.
Got up and made my crusts then got up at 4:00 and did the fillings and the meringue. So the tree is still in the same spot. Not sure what the deal was, woke up during the night like 3 times too.
I do appreciate everyone's great advice and I am listening, just hard for me to follow through for some reason. I love you guys too! I am so glad I have met yall.
Have a great day. Very cold today, 13 this morning. BRRRRRR
Hey BG- Morning to you! No snow really just about 10 miles west of where I work, they have snow, we just got a dusting, and a bit of ice. Roads weren't bad this morning. But is VERY COLD! I hate it, like everything else right now, I hate it!!
MT- I think it was that kind of night. I fell right to sleep, then IM went off and woke me up. talked for 5 min and nodded off again. Missed next message and woke about an hour later, said goodnight, slept another hour, woke again, then slept until almost 9 this morning when the phone rang. Maybe the weather is getting to us.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
MT-you have to prepare yourself to be apart from him, but it doesn't mean you are done yet. There will be ups and downs unless one of you slams the door shut and bolts it. But you can get self to a good place where maybe it isn't so bad. LE and MC are talking about a feeling of freedom. It is a really nice feeling. For almost 2 weeks now, I have not felt like I will get in trouble for anything. I will not be judged for what I say or do. Don't know if H is feeling that way yet but it is a nice feeling. One I should have had the whole M. It is simply a positive step for you. That is the bottom line.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
"Recognize that love itself needs nothing in return to grow; it is the ego that seeks validation. Love is not something one controls, but rather something that happens. Like a fragrance blowing through the breeze and we're smitten. Where things get ugly is when we try to hold on to the scent rather than just allowing it envelope us. "
Just a thought. Having my coffee and recovering from a stressful day yesterday. Love you.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
