I really do not like it when RL people challenge me for doing anything with regard to MY marriage that they feel is not in my best interest.
My boss's wife, who is a psychologist stopped by. She asked how I am doing. Then she grabbed my hand, noticed my rings and said why are you wearing your rings. I responded I am wearing my rings because I am married. She said, when will you stop. I said when I am no longer married if that ever happens. She looked at me like I said I like to eat puppies on toast with orange marmalade.
I know people mean well, but man. If I am wearing my rings, it is because I want to. I am a sentient being, she should realize I do not do this without thought. UGH!
This is hard enough. Keeping up PMA and trying to detach is the hardest thing I have ever done. It really complicates things when I have to defend my decisions to people. But she is my boss's wife so I cannot exactly tell her to mind her own business.
Now I am sitting in my office crying because it made me feel like crap.
Man it was the wrong day for this. I was already struggling this morning because I really miss him. Then I get to Starbucks and there is a Christmas song playing and it just hit me the wrong way and I teared up. Now this.
I want to be done with the crying meltdowns. I really do. And please deliver me from the "helpful" RL people who care so much about me that they ask hurtful questions to which they already know the answer.
As the cherry on the cake of my morning: one of the founding partner's of H's lawfirm committed suicide yesterday. Great job H has.
