Bill..thanks so much. I continue to do 'the best I can'. I have accepted a coaching position for girls lacrosse. My first clinic is Saturday. Although I didn't want to go last night, I went to my OR holiday party and HAD A GREAT TIME!
The rumors are now spreading...I guess not too bad considering I got bombed almost 3 years ago. I hold my head up and I try NOT to discuss this AT ALL anymore. Rehashing does nothing.
When my W corrals the kids, I get busy doing something else. When there is no note on a Monday eve when I come home and no one is there...I tell myself that this will be what it's like when I don't get them. I don't call her or complain anymore that there is no contact. I read...cook...clean.....
I've stopped fighting and competing to prove that I am an involved dad. I AM. I have now refocused on my job and let go a bit of having to be at every well appointment, etc. I love my children and I can easily see that they love me.
I will take care of myself and when my fate is decided by the courts, I will make a new life and new home and parent my kids the way I want. I WILL try to continue to co-parent with her vs. parallel parent.
As someone mentioned on mules thread, women want to dance with me...set me up with people...etc. Although I am not ready, I can now see that there will be an opportunity to start anew. It wasn't in my plan, but, I have to live and move forward since SHE chose to depart.
I have my bad days still.
I work it. FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
