Don't apologize, just work to get there for yourself. You may not be comfortable with it ever, or at least not until you take steps towards it but you really do need to take steps eventually.
Don't take what we said wrong. Just thougth it was time to be said.
We love you. Did you get tree done? Or at least started?
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.