Thankfully, I've calmed down in a huge way. I'm fasting today in tomorrow, but I have picked up cigarettes again. As much as I wanted to try giving up cigarettes, it was seriously counter-productive to the experience. Thankfully, I haven't taken the anger out in real life except when talking with some friends or posting here.
As for my H being angry, yes he has. He's been angry earlier in the separation when I was trying to make things work. He's been angry that things "can't work", and he's been angry at the idea of me dating other people.
I feel much better today. I've told myself that I am strong and can and will take shoulder anything and make it through. And I will. This board is great in assisting that fight.
Your experience, hope and insight are definitely a major help. I truly appreciate your support, and I thank you for all of your kindness.
