tonight i went the C who said i was stuck in sadness and that venting in the form of screaming in private , was what i needed to empty some emotions. So on the way home i did just that for 10 min. She was right it was theraputic, I felt some anger at my sitch.
But instead of been happy I that I got some feeling out , i felt i needed to tell H . So i text him along the following.
1. If you had spent as much time on us as you are now doing on yourself, we would not be in this mess.
2. You did not have the balls to fight for your kids and this family.
3. If I had left you in the same pain as you have left me 3 years ago you most likely would of committed suicide. ( he was sucidal of 3 occasions , which is the one reason i stuck with him )
4 That our kids will always know i tried and that he did not.
5. that venting my anger to him was good for me and that I felt much better. ( which i did for an hour )
