My H got up from his nap at about 7:30pm today and was restless, as he has been most of the day. I asked him how he was feeling and he said “I’m feeling antsy.” I asked him what he’d like to do and he said, “I want to ride my bike.” “I told him to go, ride your bike.” He went to check the weather so I knew that he intended to be gone for a long while. As he departed, I told him to enjoy himself. I really wanted to get out and do something fun away from here with him, but I knew that he needed to do something on his own.
It’s scary to let him go with no information as to how long he’ll be gone or where he is going, but I feel that the only way that I can have him, is to let him go. It’s difficult to trust in this thought, but I suppose that it is something that I must learn to accept.
Therefore, for the moment, I’m placing myself in the palm of trust.
I hope that I can be this brave in the future, as I know that it is a matter of time before I will be confronted by a larger challenge.
