Is she is or is she ain't (my baby)?

[sleeper]

So we had out talk.

This AM there were actually two phone discussions. The first was normal, exchanging info about kids and she even mentioned a rental house near hers again. She knew how much they want per month and how many bedrooms there are. I told her no, too expensive (about 140% of my current rent).

About an hour later she called and went ballistic on me. I should have discussed it earlier with her, I had upset her while she was getting ready for work and made her late, I was passive agressive in the way I responded when i couldn't reach her by phone, I should have dealt with the problem immediately when it arose, yada yada yada. I texted her an explanation of why I did what I did and added "damnit I'm still in love with you."

We talked the last time this evening. She accused me again of being "passive agressive." I mostly let this slide but did mention embarassing it was having to pick up the pieces of my @ss off the floor at work after our phone fights this AM. Funny how she can say anything in the book and hang up on me multiple times and I am being "passive agressive" in the way I word a text message.

She didn't mention my text that I was still in love with her so neither did I.

I did suggest we get together and have dinner once a week while trying to avoid the term "family dinner" to discuss events of the previous week and communicate better so things like this might not happen again. I suggested we do this each Sunday night at kidswap. She agreed and even suggested the resturant, one where we've had several meals as a family recently. I was kinda surprised how receptive she was to this suggestion.

Is this a baby step or just an adjustment in her new world order?

I'm thinking a little bit of guilt about the kids, and missing her children in general. All that angst churns around and gets aimed at the easy target: me.

I wonder how OM will react to X and I having a set dinner date every Sunday even though we will be with the kids.