My attaction to CC confuses me. It feels nice...and it also makes me experience what H probably was dealing with when he was hitting the slippery slope of an affair.
My inlaws confuse me. How long do I have to pretend for them??? And, how does my pretending that 'all is fine' help me with my marriage? I feel like I am going crazy acting as if their son does not exist in my life or that nothing is happening to me.
It wouldn't surprise me if they don't know that H filed those papers....but, I think they do.
My H confuses me. Holy poop...he filed papers on me a month ago!! Did he forget that??? I swear...!!...if anyone spent the weekend with us, you would think we were the luckiest family.
I am bored with H.
I am bored with inlaws.
I am bored with pretending that nothing difficult is happening to me.
I'm SICK of pretending and I'm SICK of being bored.
Confusion is Complicating everything.
Sophie
~~ Me-50 H-38 Married 15 years 8/7/08 D8 S10 S13 H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer H moved out 4/06
7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly 10/30/08 H signed D papers 11/10/08 D papers filed 11/13/08 D papers served at home
