Keep your anger here on the board,OK? You don't need to be exhibiting that in public. Remember this though, anger is a very strong emotion and while you have the anger it shows that you are still emotional connected. Not there's anything wrong with that; I bring it up so that you can discern if he harbors any anger toward you. If he does, then it shows that he still cares.
We've all been in the place you're in right now. It WILL get easier; but it will take time and distance. Like they say around here; it is a marathon, not a sprint.
Thanks for the appreciation. I see some similarities in our sitches that made it imperative for me to follow you in your sitch. I hope that my experience, hope, and insight can help you in the least of ways.