the rope is fraying now #10

[Babygirl]

ok. so now i feel guilty really guilty about EVEN TRYING to save this marriage. OW's mom is dying, she has to go down there this weekend, and because H is still with me, H cant keep his son, she isnt taking her boys. I understand why H is hurt. she is using me as the pawn, thier son, or me. he picked. i know they chose all this not me. BUT i am not handling the guilt of knowing how bad H wants real time with the son, and she wont let him have him, because he is here, not there. what is better for his son? it almost feels like i have to let him go, for his son. sadly to protect him from his insane mother.