Thanx Dday. No, i have accepted it which is why my anger is so fierce. And yes, it is what it is. I concentrate on me and what I can control. I am better at it every day, week and month. I am a better person than her on many levels. AmyC and some of the others have kept me sane, kept me focused and kept me sincere.
Postings from you are helpful because no one wants to feel alone in their sitch. Sad thing is, not many guys posting here in this sitch have a happy ending, at least none I've read. Although, the ones who came out on top, probably stopped posting due to the positive changes, too bad they wouldn't come back and drop a lin or give updates or support.
Anyway, I have vented, my anger is back in check and under control. I am a very good person. the fact that he is still upright, she isn't kicked to the curb and under serious scrutiny by everything that breathes is a tribute to my control and compassion. Make no mistake, I have no compassion for him. This is not his first time doing this crap to his wife and with another married woman. He will get his, I will not be part of his damnation, but it will be just, make no mistake of that.
"I can't deny what I believe, I can't be what I'm not. I know this love's forever, no matter what." Truer words for me have never been spoken. Someone will find in me the love that they need and desire, and I in them. Whther it is W or not, eventually I will be complete. I am the gold ring on this ride. I know that.
