I cannot accept her life or her choice to be with someone else. Being around her sets me off. I cannot be her friend while she is with him. It is too difficult. I cannot share my feelings with her knowing there are none for me. sorry, my selfish side. Being all nice and good graces and trying to be friends with her will give her the impressionthat I am accepting of her situation. Nothing could be further from the truth. She needs to know the pain she has caused and the mess she created. that will not be apparent by disregarding everything to be friends with her. Again, I had asked the question about being dark and the facrt that she is not responsive and my feeling is that she looks at that as he is gone, nothing to do with me so I'll continue on with my life. The other way I was treating her was, whatever youi need come see me I'll take care of it. everyone on this site agreed that was definitely thewrong impression to give her. so I don't know what I should do. She does not live with me, she does not communicate with me, and she does not give a rats ass about me. Her attitude to everyone who askes her is that we are over, it is done, no chance in hell that we'll ever be together. She is happy, she is in love with John, that is the way it is. Sorry, nobody I'm friends with would do anything remotely this painful to me. She has chosen her path, I did not push her,I did not cause this, I did not create this, she did. I am not at fualt I did nothing wrong except to be in love with her, and where did that get me....
I begged her to tell me what was wrong, for two years she was acting strange. Well she got her wish, like sh told her friend, I don't know what I want, I just know I don't want him!!! Well she got that didn't she. she is in love wiht OM, this 6 month time frame I heard about , read about of how these things end, well best that I can see she has been "with him" for ove 6 months, cheating on me. so tell me, how should I be reacting to this. Sorry to go off like this, but having her out of my life, in my mind, is keeping me sane, is keeping me hopeful that maybe she'll come back, big MAYBE! I have hope and strength, I am a better person, all this without her. The only pain I have is the gut wrenching anguish she is putting me through while she skips through her life. So again, how can I be friends with her? Acknowledging her hurts bad enough without having to see her or talk to her. She has no problem not seeing me, hearing from me or whatever with me. that is a fact. The only time she hears from me iis for money. When the insurance changes, that communication will be over. She will be happy, Lonelyd, the other bill collector in her life will be gone. Another bill collector off her back. Again, sorry, but this has been running through me for a very long time. So someone please tell me, how should a behave, how should I cat, how should I feel and how should I do anything?
