Thanks, yeah, I'm definitely on the path I need to be on. STRENGTH is what I need, as you know. I am definitely getting it from within now. I wear it everywhere. I know now He tells me to have STRENGTH, that will help me hold on to my hope and what I believe. As for the falling apart when I leave church, my mother seems to think its because while I a in church He is embracing me, giving me a much needed shoulder to cry on, to let out my emotions. I believe this is true, no other explanation comes close.