Thank you for your kind words. I'm feeling good about it this morning, although my first reaction is to reach out and drop him an email saying that I am munching the chocolate and it is really tasty and sending him a link to a song I think he would like, however that is trying to engage him and that is not where I am about at the moment. I would like some more interactions RIGHT NOW but I have to be patient and build it up slowly.
I also forgot to mention that I complimented his bag and he was really pleased and chuffed that I did and that was when he produced the gift for me. I was thinking that perhaps I assume the worst about the Chron's, perhaps he is looking tired etc because of the stress at work (he left me for that job!!! so he could concentrate on that and his 'new friends') and maybe he has been drinking more than I realised and now he has stopped he is losing weight.
Thinking that the Chron's has come back makes me just want to wrap him up and protect him and I can't do that. I still would like him to come home so we could be together again. Sigh, I feel positive about the meeting although I am wondering whether he would like me to be more concerned with his health than I am showing. Perhaps next time I could be more encouraging of the steps *he* has decided to take to improve things with his health and not me suggesting things or mothering him like before.
We left it that he would see estate agents on Thursday morning. I think I will wait for him to contact me regarding that. I have a present that I bought him ages ago that I could leave out on the side for him... or should I not 'give' him anything at the moment. I keep wanting to reach out but I am suppressing it. I suppose he needs to know I am safe and this is the only way I have found that he will approach me and we can communicate without him running away.
I have my 'fix it' hat on and am trying to suppress it!
