It is funny you should bring that up. I was talking to friend the other day about abuse. When you are abused, eventually you can and usually do start to feel like you don't deserve anything good. When you get it, it is hard to believe it is real and the good feeling feels so wrong, that eventually, you create a situation that makes you bad. Allows you to either be punished or run from the good. I guess the best way to describe it is getting comfortable and feeling good starts to feel really uncomfortable and not so good. Does that make sense?
It is a difficult thing to deal with and very hard to accept that you are worthy of the good that is coming your way.
I might leave it for a few days. But not too long. It sounds like he wants you to be there for him in a small way. Maybe send a hi, how was your trip or something. You need to remember, even with all of the history and knowledge you have, this is a total starting over point in your R. Who knows what type of R it will be, maybe just a friendship, but if it is going to be anything, you have to, to an extent, act like you have just met him. Casual.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
