I was unfaithful #4

[mamanpc]

Oh Sanderika, you have been through SO much! my heart goes out to you and i do agree that time is on your side.

My own MLC (at least i think that's what it is/was) begain in 2004 and i have emerged from it last year only when my H decided to have OW live in our house with him after i left him. That was a 'wake up call' to me as i was realising at the same time that my sitch with OM was not all as green as it looked when i daydreamed about it and had my PA thrill on the side.

So i do very much agree with your approach and the fact that you have chosen to hang in there. Your sitch and your approach to is a real inspiration to me as i'm only just starting down that path. OW of my H also appears very needy and somewhat manipulative (or maybe that's wishful thinking on my part only!) so i also fear that she would push him to D. But for now that is not at all on the table and H is kind and considerate with me, likes/wants to ML end enjoys my company when i don't meltdown. Unfortunatley i did a big meltdown last Sun evening as it's the 1st weekend with him in this new sitch with the PA fully declared and begun. So after holding myself together all day on Sunday and we had a very nice time together i completely blew it in the evening because iw as thinking about monday and the weekdays coming up where i'd be gone and he'd be with OW. So not much sleep at all Sun evening for me and H - in fact he said that if i was going to do this every WE it would be a problem. So i've solemnly vowed to him and to myself that i will not disturb his sleep ever again.
I also must not talk about OW or R ever again either - a huge effort for me but i must i must i must be able to do it!
so thanks again for your support and showing me how to do this! i also feel sometimes that i know what to do next and other times that i've totally lost it and i'm helpless and that i'll fail.