Hi PM, I read your stich over here in Infidelity. You do sound much stronger as your posts progressed. Like you I have a hot temper and I just start to lose it. What makes it so difficult is working in the same building as H and OW working in another building but I still see her. I wish she was gone it would be sooo much easier to detach and DB. I do think I have definite resentments and I need to try and step back because I know I am sabotaging my R with H.
I need to stop worrying what H is doing and how it impacts me. Keep going down those same cheeseless tunnels.
My H has mentioned D at the beginning of all this and I think he is waiting till after the holidays because he thinks he is being a nice guy.
I am going to see an atty just for initial consultation. I need to protect myself because he is so up in the fog with this OW and I know right now she has a strong influence on him.
I need to hold myself steady and not get swept away with my emotions. That is one of my biggest issues. I have to keep telling myself no expectations and get that big 2x4 and smack myself in the head. thanks for checking in.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
