Hi - you are right i think when you say he is waiting for me to slip up. I think he watches from afar.
Today i looked so good and when i was at the airport, i got a lot of attention. i walked in front of him. i was lovely, agreeable etc etc. If he wants the other woman, he can have her. He has described her in derogatory terms and said if he sleeps with her then he would be just using her !!!! That is so out of character for H to say. Anyways i thought well bub , you dont want me ( and I know he does ) then I will at least make myself feel good by getting admiring looks !
I am not sure about the sex bit. Not sure now under what circumstances I be in position for it to happen. He keeps away and i would have to ask the question if he was sleeping with OW and i am not sure i want to know.
H certainly is not happy. His laugh seems forced around people and he seems deep in thought. Mind you he has been like this all year. Perhaps i do bring back awful feelings when he sees me. I can tell in his eyes though that they are warm towards me SOMETIMES.
If he does have awful feelings, when do they disappear? how do they disappear? I think on this forum i have been advised to give space for feelings to get back to normal. I feel space means distance.
