she thinks getting a D will be all fine and dandy..we'll just live near each other and it will all be great. I felt like she was taking advantage of me on that party. she left for NYC last week then discovered that she had responsibility for the kids while she was out of town. Then, just assumed I would take them as if I'm the designated helper for her. Of course I took them, it wasnt an inconvenience but its the fact that she thinks she can just whip off wherever she wants to go shopping and I'll stick around and watch the kids for her. She was taking advantage.
That party is on a Tue night. She has the kids that prior weekend, the kids come here after school on Mon and return to her on Wed. She has plenty of time and all her relatives know the deal she has created for herself. I'm sure she just told them it would be no big deal and she could just take them whenever she wants. Its not an inconvenience and I'm sure I'm playing this all wrong, but, there are consequences to her actions. It's not all great and perfect now. The point of it is she has been a total jerk to me. Then I get this very nice email from her about this. Now because she wants something from me, she has to be all nice. That's what ticked me off. She has ignored me and blown me off over and over. I dont think me caving into her every need and wish right now is going to change anything.
I'm not sure I understand what acting 'as if' means...you mean act as if im divorced?
I'm not wallowing in my own self pity. Yes, I hate this. I am angry at her for the reasons and what she has done. We didnt have a terrible marriage. Sure, we could have worked on stuff. We should have worked on stuff. But quitting is whats pissed me off. We didnt work on anything. She just quit.
It's impossible dealing with her impatience, compulsiveness. Tonight she sent me an email regarding some bills. She just flat out makes decisions on these but has no right to. I responded very blandly, tried not to 'be right' about anything or really even argue. But, she is so impatient and comes to very quick decisions without thinking them through. She can just fly off the handle in a second, be very nice on a different day. Seems like I'm dealing with a different person all the time.
thats my rant. I'm sure I sound angry because I am very angry. I dont think she and I deserve this and I dont know how to fix it. I know everyone is trying to help me, as are people in my neighborhood that understand us both. But, seems like she's the one nobody understands.
