I'm so tired after TWO YEARS of same old same old, I have no patience anymore. Last year I'd be happily counting baby steps after such aa encounter. Today I'm just desperate for some peace and quiet. I want him gone nearly as much as I want him back. Several times I was SOOO close to saying: JUST LEAVE ME AlONE NOW, I'm not playing that game, not again! But I knew I'd regret it. I love him. Sigh...
Hi Stella, I have never posted to you but I know this feeling. Its been 2 years next month for me and really when you say I want him gone nearly as much as I want him back, that is so true for me too. I have been at the place of almost saying Leave me alone too! I am better today. I do have so much more peace. My H is still in the forrest, he is very lost. We do speak every day though. I hope you will find the peace you are looking for.
It does get frustrating but stop putting a time limit on this & the time will fly by Took almost 6 yrs & today I've updated my thread to post MARRIAGE RESTORED! The roller coaster will take you through many twists & turns the question is will you have to ride a few extra rolls or will you learn your lessons quickly? There are lessons that we each have to learn during this time of seperation, he has lessons & you have lessons he can't learn them for you & you can't learn them for him patience may be in fact one of the many lessons that you have to learn during this time I do know for my ownself patience was one that I had to learn getting frustrated only makes matters worse take it from one who's been there & done that
