Hi Tom: Thanks for coming by. It would be nice to get more moments like that - of simple interactions with someone...not that I'm ready to go the next step of going on a date or anything...but it is nice to feel less invisible.
My W's father called to ask me to do him a favor today...asked I would mind checking out a store and see if it was worth placing an order from them...(the store is near me -500 miles from them)...so I said sure...he then asked me if my S11 and I would be coming up to their house for Christmas...so yet another reminder that he's just out of touch with reality....
No one in my W's family is ever held accountable for their actions...which may be why my W has such a hard time with me - and with the fact that she had an affair three years ago...and that I would tell her it hurt me...her responses to my sadness were: to threaten to kill herself, tell me to get over it, claim it wasn't an affair, tell me that because of her affair I would never accept her as good person...
Maybe the only way for my wife to become the person she wants to be - more self-confident, strong, assertive, independent, healthy in love - is to destroy what we have/had and start over...I don't know if that means starting over with me...but I do know that I am learning a ton about myself in a short span of time...finding stuff I like, love and want to change...
