Thanks for your reply. I had thought you'd long since given up on me! (and I didn't blame ya'). I know you are right in all you say.
Actually, back in the July/August/September time frame, I had felt pretty good and was doing a lot of growth and feeling good about me and H seemed to notice and we were "dating" and spending time together and even being intimate. But then H had his high school reunion which was not the "rite of passage" he thought it would be, and then his sister died and H just withdrew again. And then it all came out that he had had PA with OW and he said he never planned to "try again" as he had said and that our time together was all guilt.......and all that growth I had made crumble!
The affair left me with a doubt in myself that I have never had before and I struggle every day to just keep moving forward. I think I need to increase my AD dosage back up (and I was so proud in August to have reduced it!) My doctor has said I can increase it any time and just let him know because I am on a minimal dosage now. But, I didn't want to if I could avoid it as I am trying to be "healthy" and not fill my body with chemicals......
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
