<Beth and AlexEN> Thank you for your kind words of support. It is very gratifying to know that everything I have done to make myself a better person has also been the spark that has rekindled the fire in my R and M. Knowing that the hard work and dedication I have put in has and will continue to keep the fire growing and living. It is will worth the time and effort.
Like you I have read a lot of sitchs here. I have found some of what I have read disheartening, but also inspiring. There is never enough positive news so I am glade that I have been one of the ones that can write about it. Although, I am not all totally out of the woods, I do think that it will only take a little more time to find that open beautiful glade that will mark my departure from the hell I lived through for the past 7 + months.
Everyone's sitch is the same, but different. What I have found for me that works is a combination knowledge I have gotten on this forum, books that I have read, and visitation with my C. When I take all of this and add a couple of very good friends that have helped me fight off the demands it all added up to a positive outcome.
For all of you that are here, keep working on making yourself better. Keep working for what you want and do not give up ..... never give up.
By the way ...... W decided to sleep with me again on the second night, even though she had said 16 hours before she was not. I think we have turned another corner and she has taken down a few more stones from her wall. She also told me that she really enjoys being with me, but she is still struggling with being on her own. She went on to say that she is working on that part of her story. It is going to take her time to get through part of it. I told her that I have all the time in the world.
Again I have become to wordy, my apologies, but I wanted to express some of my feeling on this matter to who may want to read about what is going on in my sitch. Maybe by writing this on the forum I can inspire other, as I have been inspired.
Thank you for allowing me to bend your ear for a minute or two.
