You girls are the best! I don't know why I was having a......I don't know what to call it....some kind of melt down and I just needed a shoulder. I think it is probably more than physical but the physical is what is causing the depression. I try to accept the way things are for me, but I am having a really hard time of it. I always decorated our church from one end to the other.....I had to give that up. I always decorated my house for every holiday every month, but I had gotten down to just Christmas, but now I can't do that. It is tearing me up b/c of my grandchilren. My H hasn't said much b/c I think he knows how bad it is killing me. I just want so badly to be able to just do what I use to do......but I suppose that is the desire of every person that has any chronic illness that disables them. I had hoped that maybe I would have a time that it would get better for a while, but it doesn't look like it. Wow, I am really feeling sorry for myself! And, to think that I have been talking to the girls about trying to keep from saying I'm sorry. But, I haven't said that.....yet.....LOL. I do hope that I haven't made anyone feel bad by hearing my woes. Just one of those times for me.
Take care, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
