Dear Cinders, do what you feel you must do to regroup and regain your strength. many will be here thinking of you and sending up prayers for you and your family.
You have not failed, you had no choice or say in what your husband decided.
I pray this will be the hardest cross you have to bare and that you will find your own path and peace will come into your life, regardless of what your h decides.
Take time out and rest and renew your spirit.
God bless and keep you.
love naej.