I'm emotionally burnt out. I will not be posting for a while as I cannot help anyone with my sorrow. I hope you will forgive me for that. I will be back, when I've re-loaded...;I do hope that happens one day. This pain seems everlasting. I cannot bear to see or hear a happy couple, it hurts that we failed at that.
I love you all and hope that each and everyone of you finds love and peace.
Take care, and may God Bless You All !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Dear Cinders, do what you feel you must do to regroup and regain your strength. many will be here thinking of you and sending up prayers for you and your family. You have not failed, you had no choice or say in what your husband decided. I pray this will be the hardest cross you have to bare and that you will find your own path and peace will come into your life, regardless of what your h decides. Take time out and rest and renew your spirit. God bless and keep you. love naej.
Sorry Cinders that life seems to be a bit more than you can bare at the moment. I think the holidays put so much undue stress on us.
I just think that your body just gives way at some point and what we carried all bottled up inside has to come out some how.
I remember in Jan last year we put our beloved dog to sleep. I had to manage this all on my own. No h around to help. It felt like everything inside just came pouring out. I felt the loss of everything in my life. I was sobbing uncontrollably at the vet. I am sure that I would not have taken that as hard as I did, but my whole life came pouring out in my tears.
This is what could have happened to you with the tree.
Take the break that you need. We are all thinking of you and know that we are here for you.
God bless!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Cinders, Take all of the time you need to heal. Please be kind to yourself in the process.
We will be right here when you opt to return.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Just want you to know that I went to church today and specifically prayed for you and your family. This was before I saw your latest post. You deserve good things.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
