AmyC not sure if you saw my last post in the closed part II about the Celtic Cross I bought saturday in boston. /it was very strange, but I am believing it absolutely is a sign. Like I said, maybe He is sending me signs I can't see. I need something more tangible. Well I got it Saturday. Got goosebumps when I read the back of it.
In a nutshell, I told you how i was planning on taking my D17 into boston so we could do something together outside of the house. I made these plans based on the incident of 2 Sunday nights ago (last week). We got into town, walked around a little bit before I noticed the Irish cart in the marketplace. thinkingof my older D who wanted a Celtic Cross necklace, we went in. I looked at all the crosses and kept coming back to the "knotted" cross. Told my D17 I liked it and she said then buy it. I hemmed and hawed bout not buyng myself things, feel awkward spending money on myself. Then she said, what does it say on the back. I joked and said probably made in china. I put my glasses on and the word "STRENGTH" was written on the back of the cross. You could have knocked me over with a feather. I couldn't believe it. Here I was a week before complaining I am not getting any signs about what to do where I should go or anything. Now I am locking at a cross that fascinated me with the insription "STRENGTH" on the back. Yeah its a sign.
My strength lately comes from my darkness, not sure if that sounds strange, but it does. I want her back, I want my marriage, I want us to be together. My only concern as I am dark, she seems to be getting stronger with OM. By all my learnings and readings, this is not good. It appears being dark is definitely having the opposite affect on her. I know mostly it works for situations where OP are not involved, so I am wonering if anyone has any advice.
