Journaling: I had a nice week-end and went to a few events: Christmas carols and a Dixy concert. I also met a friend.
Today was a beautiful day and I went for a long walk in the sun. Tomorrow I will go with my sisters to my niece to celebrate her daugther's birthday.
I ignored H's e-mail regarding staying friends, etc. so far. He replied to my e-mail in a normal way, but did not mention anything regarding friends anymore. I had to contact him about something else and have not heard from him yet.
I had a bit of a down time lately. I guess the holiday time is affecting me as well. I still miss my old H very much. I don't know how I will ever be able to live without thinking of him. I was watching something on TV and the scenery was just like somewhere H and I spent a lot of time. There is always something somewhere which reminds me of H. Even when I go to the theatre there is always something which triggers my thoughts of H!
Will I ever be able to live without having constant memories of H?????
