Yeah, comparing myself to the OW would be counterproductive, and I'm not letting myself go there. I know that in reality I wouldn't even want to be like her. I like me too much.
I know from a logical perspective that I shouldn't have slept with him. Taking stock of my Saturday, I still don't regret it, but I've also resolved not to do it again because I know that he does need to miss the M - to want and be unable to have.
Not sure I'll even be seeing him anytime soon, as there aren't many reasons for us to see one another except for him needing to pick up his bills. If he gets a PO Box and changes his address then even that excuse is gone.
In any case, I will not sleep with him again unless he recommits. Must keep repeating that one like a mantra.
Thanks for the advice, marriedCrazy. I appreciate it so much!
