Sara,

I know what you meant, no worries. It really sad, when he isn't here everything is fine, quiet, kids play nicely (for the most part, they are boys \:\) ).. When he gets home, the mood changes.

Certainly him being away this summer was difficult, but overall, when he is away for a day or two, I actually look forward to the quietness.. that is unfortunate. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. He makes the mood crappy, and I end up just going upstairs to do laundry and just stay away from him.

He thinks everything is a quick fix, its not, and I don't know how to make him understand that.

Instead I find him on the internet this morning looking to have a body part grow larger....OMG sara.. He's ridiculous.

me: 37
H: 44
Married for 18 years this june
S7
S3
porn issues, and much more... since 7/06

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.