Healing my Heart Part 6

[fightingirish]

O ok, so I hope someone is on right now. Im about to just let it all go.

First off, S6 has been sick since Thursday, he's gotten worse and i stayed up last night just watching him breath. H hasn't spoken to me in 2 days. Kept on asking him what was wrong, no answer.. very cold to me, ice cold.

So he said he has to work today, which he isn't happy about, thought he would have a break. So I made him tell me what was going on when I got home. (both S6 and S2 are on steriods now with asthma issues and also antibiotics)~ that was this moring running them to the dr., was supposed to get my hair done and had to cancel... soo...

Got home still ignoring me, finally says that he's still not getting enough from me (sexually).. he was actually counting on his hands. No granted, you all know that we've been since for the last 3 wks. so I want to say we've had sex 2 or 3 times since then. Well he said he's tired of my excuses and that he tired of doing everything... WHAT?????

I calmly said that's not true, that I contribute just as much. He says I do more for the boys than him?????? I said well they are 6 and 3.. excuse me they can't take care of themselves.

I didn't get mad, he just walked out.

I think im on my last run with this guys. His feelings are he works hard and I don't,, and im here to F* him whenever he feels like it know matter what is going on with me, and that he doesn't have to maintain any emotional connection with me.

I did tell him that he hasn't changed either and that there has to be a middle of the road here, and all hee was doing was blaming me...

I have to spend a vacation with this man in 3 days???? Im at a loss.. I don't know what to do. I could easily bag this vacation because of all the sickness, but the kids are so looking forward to it, and they are old enough where they would be really upset.

I don't know.. tell me what to do, I don't know what to do, im so distraught.

It makes me think because in his mind hes not getting what he thinks I should be giving him, that he will go elsewhere,

help me guys , im scared.