When I try to catch up with what's been going on in my R, something comes & trips me up. I walked into a wooden beam getting into a toy ship yesterday & practically gave myself a concussion. When you add in complete apathy, it makes it difficult to post what looks like the same 'ol script.
After a year & a half of back & forth, around & around, ending with the H still engaging OW, I have an 'Ick' feeling when I think of him.
So much damage has been done I no longer have any draw.
In hindsight, if I was to give myself a path to take, it would have been to stick with my guns early on. By caving whenever he came in my direction, it set up a pattern that kept us stuck in no man's land & resulted in my lack of desire in a future with him.
I have a great life though, that I'm just learning how to fully appreciate.
