I sometimes think my H has completely gone crazy. One minute acting like all is well, things will be great and the next, distant and surly. He is taking off Friday night to spend some time with me and the kids and even suggested we go out to dinner. I told him the kids want to go to the corn maze on Saturday and he never really did like that stuff before but said yes I will go with you let's do it as a family. I want to think this is a good sign but I am so wary and suspicious of everything. I am just going to take a deep breath and enjoy the time with the kids. At least I hope I can do that without acting like a loon myself
Me 40 H 41 T17/M14 Sons 7 and 4 OW - yes for over a year "I don't know what I want" 5/29/08
Looking a little forward to this weekend, doing a wait and see. I happy to be spending some fun time witht the kids (have not done a lot of that these past few months) and it will be nice if my H does come. It would really make them happy.
Me 40 H 41 T17/M14 Sons 7 and 4 OW - yes for over a year "I don't know what I want" 5/29/08
I have been on a roller coaster of emotion lately. Trying to keep it together at home for me and my kids. H said something interesting about the OW, that she is "beyond psyco" I said nothing back. Someone told me a while back on one of the boards here that let her drive him away and not the other way around, so even though I am an emotional wreck lately (my mom died 6 months ago and I don't think I really ever grieved yet due to my marriage problems) I am holding it together and acting "as if".
Me 40 H 41 T17/M14 Sons 7 and 4 OW - yes for over a year "I don't know what I want" 5/29/08
Back on from a long time gone. H is still in contact with OW. Caught him telling her he loves her. Then tells me that he is here with me and to "just be patient, I am trying" Some days I just want to it end, me and him and others want to stay and fight for this. I have driven myself crazy snooping around his cell, computer and stuff and I just don't want to do that anymore. At this point what more am I going to find out? Nothing I have not seen already. Just venting.
Me 40 H 41 T17/M14 Sons 7 and 4 OW - yes for over a year "I don't know what I want" 5/29/08
Hi artteach, I was have been thinking of you lately. My hubby stopped contacting the OW and I am still going crazy so I am not sure how to even understand what you are feeling right now. I understand about the snooping. I have finally started ignoring things I do not want to find out for and started getting my finances in order. My goal right now is to put myself in a financial position that will allow me to kick him out if there is ever any other incidents. I have become so emotionally detached that I am not longer DBing. I am just living my life and if he wants to try, it is his goal, not mine. I am not happy and am not going to beg him to stay with me or love me.
How are your kids doing?
M:38 H:42 T:20 M:19 D:18 S:17 MLC: Sometime in 2007 OW Bomb 1: 12/28/07 OW Online relationship 2: Spring 2009 Told him I wanted D: May 10, 2009 D final: 07/09/11
