I stayed home today, emotions of yesterday afternoon took a toll on me and I need to rest.
Things are progessing I guess. I know that this healing process will often be painful.
Do you remember that I told you that I emailed the OW's H to tell him that my H had finally told me the truth, and that I was sorry that he had been right all along? Well, he showed up at my door yesterday. Seems that he doesn't read his email all that much these days, and had just found my message. I answered the door and stepped outside to talk to him. We talked for about 5 minutes and it was cold out, so we sat in his truck in my driveway and talked for about an hour. My H was in the house, lol! He knew who had come over, because we both heard the truck in the driveway and I said "who's here?" He said, looks like XXX. Then he walked back into the living room away from the door, so I went to answer it. I'm sure that he didn't expect me to do that!
We had a pretty good talk. Two shell shocked old friends, suffering terrible grief. I think that between the two of us, I am doing better than he. I know that it is because I have all of you and the DB book. He really doesn't have much. He was going to an IC, but it was hurting more than it was helping. I would like to be able to give him this site, or the book, but he is a smart guy, and I'm pretty sure that would lead him to this site, and I know that he would find me. That would not be good for him, I don't think.
Anyway, the fallout - so many months later, is beginning to ripple. I wish that it was not happening right at Christmas time, but then maybe that might be the best time to demonstrate forgiveness.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
