Carlos, Beth Thanks for your supports. It means a lot to me. You all have no idea...thank you.
Journal It has been strange weekend. S3 has been with me since last week. We have a blast. I love him more than anything. W came back to ATL for work stuff on Friday. She stayed in the house. I felt a little awkward when she came in. She looks different, may be of the weight lost. There were no physical touch, just simple 'Hi and how are you' to each other. That's all. We just had some light conversation that night, nothing really important.
As it turns out, she has bought the tickets to the SEC champ game to GA dome. Her uncle supposed to go with her but he could not make it. I ended up going to the game with her on Saturday afternoon. We had a really good time at the game. We took the train to the game and there were several times she needed to grab my hand because of big crowd moving in and out. She quickly explained to me doesn't mean to. I just told her I understand. I did not have any expectation from her anyway because I know the OM is still in the picture.
Yesterday afternoon, we had our brief (5 mins) R/M/D talk. I don't even know how it got started. I told her that she doesn't really have to lie to me anymore about stuff in general. I told her if we are getting a divorce, at least we can have an honest relationship going forward. I told her that we are not H/W at this point. We are just friends. I told her I will just make my decision based on what is best of S3. I told her that I know the OM is still in the picture and I knew about the PA in last month. I was really calm and confident throughout. I think she was shock that I knew the A/PA. She was getting ready to leave for work anyway. On the way out, I apologize for the R talk because I can tell it adds stress on her. Then she said she was glad that I knew. I guess it is somewhat a weight off her shoulder, but who knows. Through this brief R talk, I have shown her that I am OK with or without her. On the other hand, I think I backslide a bit and got suck into the R talk.
She should be leaving tonight with S3. I am not sure what will happen next. One positive note, she has scheduled IC next week. Hopefully IC will be helpful for her. I will just keep on detaching/GAL. That's right......toilet seat is still staying up.
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Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!