H and I are still on track for traveling. I brought home a travel book for Brazil and for California yesterday, and he was REALLY excited about the California one, particularly about going to San Diego.
There was sort of future talk last night in terms of places to live. It wasn't quite "let's move together", but it was discussion of different places that H would be open to living in.
This morning we were getting along really well, joking around, but then had our first disagreement. However I think I handled it well, and the morning ended up being pretty positive. H got annoyed with me over something that I failed to do in terms of our new ISP. I had forgotten to see if we need a phone line for the broadband, as we don't have one in our house--this is actually a pretty big deal. He was pretty annoyed about it, but then he took a shower, and I decided to go into work a bit late to see if things could be smoothed over. When he got out, he apologized for being mean, and we ended up taking the train together. What I did from my side was not to react to his annoyance emotionally. I said "Please don't talk to me like that. I made a mistake, and I am going to fix it." In the past if he got annoyed with me, I would have been extremely defensive, yelled or cried, and we would have left the house angry. By me reacting coolly but firmly, instead I got an apology. I was in the wrong, but he was wrong in the way that he spoke to me. Our first conflict resolution!
Then on the train I had the portable internet. We looked at airfares together to Mexico, looked at rental cars in San Diego etc., and this was pretty fun. We were laughing and looking at podcasts to download and listen to. He seems as excited as I am, and this is a really good sign.
Since I've been at work he's sent me his class schedule for this next semester, and has asked which dates he should look at for Brazil. I think something must have shifted for H this weekend when he made the decision to start planning trips with me...We're still not "there", but I love making plans with H that include being around his family as this really validates our relationship in my eyes. In fact last night he said that he would like for me to cook for his family one night while we are in Mexico, and that he would like me to cook Mexican food because mine is so good. This was REALLY sweet. Keep in mind that his family all have people who cook for them on a daily basis and are pretty good...
Anyway I'm trying to keep my emotional distance a bit still. I have done a good job so far of keeping myself in check around him. I think when H is done with school this week (before winter break), he might be a bit more relaxed too. I am also REALLY looking forward to our trip to the Czech republic. I want to see if H will wear his ring when he is around my ex...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
