Working on a friendship

[Belle]

Thanks Tango

I know I need to work on myself, I have been doing that but it seems like I am struggling a bit right now.

I know I shouldn't listen to H's voicemails. I don't need to hear that he is having some sort of R with OW. It really really really hurts.

I was telling a friend the other night that it's not premeditated invasion of his voicemail. Like right now, I know his phone is off - it ran out of battery power and he has no charger. (US cell actually let him activate an old phone that I gave him - but I don't have the charger)

So I know I can check his voicmail right now. But I know better. It's not good for me. But it's those times when I call him up and then all of sudden, I get a bright idea to check as I'm listen to his voice say that he can't pick up the phone, leave a message.

Sorry for babbling......I guess I had been hoping that he wasn't still spending so much time with her and having such a close relationship with her - only b/c we had spent more time together and he had been telling me how much he enjoyed it and was thinking of me.

Silly me, for having more expectations.......

I will continue to work on me.....You are right when you say that we need to work on ourselves and what happens, happens.

I need to go check out your sitch!